Alas, I have been MIA yet again. After my daughter’s birthday last month, life (and work) threw me for a total loop. It has been an extremely difficult month not only trying to juggle a very busy holiday season, kiddos being off school, my branding schedule, Thanksgiving, and to top things off I was being hit daily with excruciating headaches. It was getting to a point where I wasn’t thinking “I wonder if I’m going to get a migraine today?” rather “When is the migraine going to hit?” After about 2 weeks of almost non stop pain, I felt like something had to be wrong so I tried to cover my bases by first going to the dentist. In the past, if I needed any dental work done, I would typically start to get some headache pain… nothing major and nothing like I was going through, but I wanted to rule that out before going to the doctor.
Well, as it turns out, I did have a small cavity , had it filled the same day, and thought to myself “OK great, that should do it…. bye bye headaches!” Boy was I wrong. After that day, they actually got worse and were lasting anywhere from 8 to 10 hours. There were times where I couldn’t do anything but close my eyes and cry (and after 2 weeks, I was at this point for a good part of the day). If I was standing it hurt. If I was sitting it hurt. If I was talking it hurt. If other people were talking it hurt. The pain was just getting worse and worse. Imagine having to work everyday with my branding clients, requests, changes, questions, on a session? Oh it was horrible trying to hide the pain. So if you happened to email me, call, met with me, had a session in the past month and I seemed a bit “off”, perhaps even bitchy… chances are I was in agony and could barely think or see straight! My apologies I’m back to my normal, happy, and only sometimes bitchy self!
Being the hypochondriac that I am, I of course started thinking the worse… well something is surely going on in my brain (and not just being crazy mind you). It was so bad that even my husband who typically laughs at all of my “ailments” was telling me that I needed to go in. Poor guy took plenty of days off work just to take care of me and the kids… getting them to and from school, dance class, tutoring, grocery store runs, cooking, cleaning, then rubbing my feet at night because its the only thing that helped even a little bit. My husband is a super hero. Not one complaint and I never once asked for anything… he did all of it 100% on his own. Told you… he is a total super hero.
Anyways, he scheduled me to see a doctor on a same day appointment. We went in, I met with the doctor, he prescribed some migraine medicine and some vicodin, and sent me off to radiology for a CT scan. Oh God… here it is, it must be brain cancer. I have a tumor, game over. That has to be the reason right? Nobody gets headaches like this with so much constant pain and for 3 weeks straight. Now a normal person would think to themselves “OK well daily headaches such, but eventually it will go away. No big deal. Its just a headache!” I’m not normal though, I already know this. My family knows this and they still love me. My crazy health thoughts are actually a running joke in my family. When I start to feel even the slightest pain, they ask me “WHEN are you going to see a doctor. Surely you have that checked out immediately! It might be XYZ” And when they say XYZ, they typically come up with the most off the wall diseases. It’s all fun and games until I’m “really” confronted with something lol.
Anyways, took the CT scan and so began the LONGEST 5 days of my life. Well maybe not the longest, but it sure sucked. Every time the phone rang I was freaking out, thinking it was the doctor asking me to “come in and discuss things”. Talk about worrying! Now I had a headache AND I had to deal with crazy thoughts in my head? This really sucks. It’s amazing what can go through your head when you are potentially “dying”…. I know, Im total crazy person.
Well, the doctor finally got back to me, said everything was normal but he did want me to see a neurologist and headache specialist! Yah, I don’t have a tumor And about 6-7 days after I spoke with the doctor, I noticed that the headaches were starting to taper off. Each day it was getting a bit better and I am now happy to report that I have been “almost” migraine free for 3 days now. That ain’t long BUT I will gladly take it. I have gotten mild headaches here and there the past few days, but 2 tylenol are taking care of it! SO happy to start feeling normal again. Like I said, its been a crappy month, but I think I am on the upswing now… crossing my fingers and taking one day at a time anyways!
Quickly, onto something else a bit more fun! So I have always had pretty long hair and it grows really fast. Every couple of years, I grow my hair out really long and then cut it so that I can donate it to locks of love. Well that time has come again… had my hair appointment yesterday and got chopped Check out the before/after!
Do I look grown up or what? I even decided to rock some bangs! I definitely think I look older now though and thats definitely not the look I was going after! I like it short more than I thought I would, but I think I just need to play a bit more to find something that still feels like “me”. This looks more serious & structured to me (both of which I am NOT)! I’m going to try and take pics of different looks and styles I end up doing. Thats one of the perks of this short hair thing, I can do more things I think. Definitely need to get used to it though! It’s fun for now and I’m excited to donate my hair. In the end, thats what its all about right!